Hello Winter, Can You Please Go Away Now?

I really really hate cold weather, I've been such a recluse these past few months. I haven't been out at all, even the thought of going out is tiring. The good thing is that it's been warming up in the last week or so, but the nights are still bitter cold.

In May I went on a holiday to Shanghai and Tibet (I should post that soon I think), the trip was great except we were both sick in Tibet and that didn't help with the high altitude sickness. I think after you come back from a holiday it's quite normal to feel a little depressed, especially since our trip was so satisfying. It kind of further highlighted the fact that Australia is really quite behind in a lot of things, mainly transport and urban planning side of things. I miss Shanghai with its millions of things to do and see, its easy-as public transport systems, huge shopping malls and of course, the food! I miss having literally millions of choices when it comes to deciding what to eat that day. 

Life back in Sydney kinda sucks, I'm thrown back into the daily mundane routines. I recently got Netflix so it made not going out and having contact with the outside world even easier for me. Feeling very unfulfilled with my life to be honest, everyday is laced with self doubt and just a general disinterest in things and people. I feel like perhaps this will go away when the warmer months come, well I hope so anyway. 

Crab Carnival Fail

It's Autumn and crab season, so I was quite excited (make that VERY excited) to hear that 'The Morrison' is doing a crab carnival. Apparently this is the second year they're doing this since the first time around was so popular. So I had a look online at the menu and I gotta say, the special crab dishes sounded very nice indeed. 

You had crab tacos, crab rolls, chowder, soft shell crab burger, crab linguine and chili mud crab to choose from. So I made the booking and off we went, first of all, the atmosphere was pretty good, the front area is the bar and is a bit noisy, packed with white collar groups. The back area is the restaurant dining hall which was a lot more intimate. We were greeted by a hostess who clearly did not want to be there. The crab tacos are $5 each during happy hour (6-7pm) and we wanted 2, we also ordered the crab rolls, the burger and linguine. 

Ok..where do we start? The tacos and crab rolls came first, we actually ordered 2 but they gave us 6. I guess it's an honest mistake since it said 3 per serve? But there was only 1 crab roll when the menu said it was also 3 per serve. We asked the waitress and she didn't seem to know anything, after a bit of confusion she brought out the other 2 rolls.

The crab tacos were essentially just bits of crab tossed with chillies and herbs and plonked onto a piece of lettuce. The crab meat was so bland and could've really used some kind of dressing, it was a HUGE disappointment because when you think about tacos you imagine a flavourful tasty treat instead of the piece of sh*t that was given to us. Moving onto the rolls, pretty much the same crab meat tossed with chillies and herbs sandwiched between a bun that looked like they got from the supermarket (the no frills kind). These people really shouldn't be so frugal with the sauces, it was so dry and tasteless.

So having had 2 terrible starters, Julian was getting very frustrated by this point. I was hoping perhaps the mains would redeem this place but they didn't. I had the pasta and boy that was the worst pasta I have ever tasted in my life. I'm starting to think that either the chefs do not have any taste buds or they just can't be bothered to taste their own food. The pasta was WAY overcooked, the sauce is basically just lemon juice. You cannot taste anything else other than lemon juice. What a waste of crab meat!

Julian's burger was just fried soft shell crab in between 2 buns (which may I also add, looked like they were bought from a supermarket). The only good thing from that dish was the duck fat chips. 

I would recommend them to stop doing the 'crab carnival', seriously, just don't. The bill? $114, no tips for you thank you!

P.S. I didn't take any photos because I felt like they really didn't deserve it.

 

Dear Mr & Mrs [ Insert Last Name Here ]

Dear Mr & Mrs [ Insert Last Name Here ],

I'm not really sure why I'm writing this to you, I can't imagine you being the kind of people that read blogs. But I suppose this is my way of venting about your darling daughter. I'm sure you haven't heard, even if you have it would be from the Police, she ran away with over $4,000 worth of my stuff last week. 

I guess I have to take some responsibilities for that too, I was naive enough to let that pathetic excuse for a human being into my home. But you know, under the circumstances, I thought she'll only be renting for a month so I didn't really bother to ask too much, I'm obviously regretting that decision now. Perhaps I should have kicked her out sooner when I started noticing her complete disregard for other people's things, but oh well, it's a bit late for that now. 

See, among the things she took from me was my $3,000 Chanel handbag. You must be wondering why anyone would spend that much money on a bag, just like how I wonder a person like her could even exist. You'll have to excuse my rudeness, she has put me through a lot of anguish and stress in the last week. The feeling of not being safe inside your own home is not nice at all as you can imagine. By the way, did you know that our planet's resources are being used up at an alarming rate? You probably don't, doesn't seem like the kind of people who would care but anyway. It would be so great if the resources that went into raising your daughter would say, go to raise the next Stephen Hawking or someone else who would eventually make some kind of positive impact on the future of humanity. 

I suppose the saddest thing of them all in this situation would have to be your grandson. Having a father who went to jail and a mother who is well, your daughter, I can't imagine a future for him that involves a lot of prospects. He'll probably grow up to have some kind of mental deficiency due to his mother's drug abuse while he was still in her. I'm one of the millions of people who actually do my part for the society and pay taxes, those tax dollars goes to people like your daughter who abuse the system. It really makes me angry to think that my money goes to support another generation of oxygen-wasters. I was quite depressed but I think now I'm just angry, but it's ok, she's only made a small dent in my life. She is irrelevant, to me and to this society.

I hope I never have to see her again, but if we do it would be in court. Although the chances of me getting my things back are slim, I'm still somewhat hopeful. If she's smart she would've sold them already, but then again we all know she's anything but that. 

With Regards ( Not really ),

T.Z

Yes I'm a Introvert, So What?

Ever since when I was a child, people around me, including my parents have always said that I was too shy. I didn't like talking to strangers (like that was a bad thing anyway). "She'll grow out of it later" is generally the answer given when asked. When I didn't grow out of it the comments turned into criticism. Over the years, those comments didn't stop, not just coming from older generations but my own peers. 

So I feel like I should clear some things up, not just for me but also all the other introverts out there. No, introverts does not equal to antisocial people. Rather, we like to be alone with our own thoughts. A lot of the time, large gatherings and social events are very mentally draining for me. But that doesn't mean I can't handle social situations, I can hold a conversation with a stranger perfectly fine, but smalltalk bores and tires me and I feel the need to escape. I like spending time by myself but that doesn't mean I'm lonely. There's nothing more annoying than having someone you know keep bugging you to keep them company because they can't stand spending a few hours alone. You should be responsible for your own happiness. 

What's even more ridiculous is that I've been told in the past that if I really tried, I could stop being like this. Like there's this magical button I can press and voila! Social Tian! I prefer to observe and listen, there's a lot to be learned about a person by just listening to them and observing their demeanor. So what if I don't care about where you went on holiday this year, stranger who I probably won't see again for the rest of my life? So what if I don't want to tell you my life story, person who I just met 10 minutes ago, is that so wrong? Even when I'm with my inner circle of friends, there are times when I feel like I've had enough of this and I need to be by myself for a while. 

There is no right and wrong to this, it's just what it is. Everybody is different and are free to choose how they live their lives. So for another person to criticize me for being simply how I am is just offensive and ignorant. I can't just perk up because you feel like I'm being boring and needs to be less of a party pooper. A lot of people these days like to get to know everybody for the sake of 'networking', it's like another way of saying "I'm gonna be an acquaintance for now so that when I need you for something I'll contact you ok?". Well what if I just want to spend my time and energy on people who I actually care about and deserves my attention?

So yes, keep judging me for being antisocial and a ice queen, for being different than you are. I'm sorry that I'd rather stay home and do absolutely nothing than go to bs social gatherings that I'm obligated to. No, I'm not depressed or self indulgent. Yes keep telling me that I'll never make it because I don't know how to talk to people 'properly', but you don't know me and you never will. I'm just being me, if that offends you so then maybe you should go and eff off.